I was driving home today and realized
I've never been more proud of my self. Looking back at the last year...and where I was. I've come along way.
Before coming out to Utah for school, my life was a mess. On the out side, I looked okay. But on the inside I was breaking, hurting, and looking for something else.
I knelt down to pray one night, asking that I would get in to BYU. I thought BYU was my only chance to change my life. I thought it was the one place that I could be around people that would have a good influence on me.
Later, I found out I didn't get accepted in to BYU, but that was okay. I knew I wouldn't get in.
Later, I found out I was accepted at Dixie State College in St.George, Utah.
This was it. The answer to my prayers. I remember Brooke Ahern (church friend) saying something in her graduation speech. "No matter where you go, you will always find good people." Thank you Brooke. That has stuck with me for over a year now.
I didn't know anyone when I came out to Utah. But I knew the lord sent me here for a reason.
I wanted to change my life, become happier.
On August, 16, 2009 I arrived in St. George, Utah. I remember
er being on the plane, and landing in St.George. You can see the Temple as you land.
I can't explain to you the feeling to relief that I had. I was here. I was where the lord needed me to be.
I was just happy to know I made it.
It was hard leaving home, but I knew that I needed to.
This was the best decision I ever made. And after years of bad ones, it was the start to a new life.
For the next 2-3 months I was really struggling. I was lucky enough to have a great room mate, April Nelson.
She helped me through so much. Thank you April!
I always knew the church was true, but after coming to Utah, being around LDS friends, dating LDS guys, and meeting with my bishop, I truly felt my saviors love.
For the first time in over a year, I went to the temple.
It was the best feeling in the world.
I don't think it was a "coincidence" that I met Broc at the time that I did.
I know my Heavenly Father, lead Broc to me.
I know my Savior lives.
What comfort this sweet sentence gives!
My favorite part of this song is
He lives to grant me rich supply
He lives to guide me with his eye
He lives to comfort me when faint
He lives to hear my souls complaint.
He lives to silence all my fears
He lives to wipe away my tears
He lives to calm my troubled heart
He lives all blessings to impart.
I never would of thought that a year later, after going through a hard, time I would marry in the House of the Lord.
I never thought I was good enough.
No one is perfect. We just have to try our hardest in this life.
This past year has been amazing. If you are struggling, look toward the Savior.
He loves you.
He is there for you.